Good Morning and Happy Monday to my beautiful readers
Today’s post wouldn’t of happened had I not read Mallory’s recent post called “Fill It Up”. As many of you know, Joshua and I have been working with with our OBGYN since being diagnosed with HA in October. I was and am currently not ovulating so our hope of having a baby at the moment is just not realistic.
It wasn’t until Friday morning when I read Mallory’s post that I realized how much this whole journey has taken over not only my life, but Joshua’s life as well. I’ve let the bad outweigh the good. I’ve never credited myself for the milestones I’ve made along the way.
There was a sentence Mallory wrote that opened my eyes… “Somewhere along the way, I let the want for a baby turn into a challenge that I needed to overcome”. After reading and letting those words sink in, my whole outlook and perspective had changed. I’ve been trying so hard to become healthy, that in a way I’ve only been setting myself up for failure. Yes I may be listening to my doctor on the fitness and eating part, but what about stress? With how much pressure I’ve been putting on myself day in & day out; I can’t imagine its helping bring my hormones to normalcy.
I no longer want to live as if I’m about to cross the finish line, because in reality, I haven’t even started the marathon. Until I start ovulating again, I just need to sit back, relax & count the blessings I have in front of me. If I continue to let this situation take over our lives, it’ll be a rough ride. I know it’s not possible to be happy 24/7, but who says you can’t be most of the time?! I don’t want to feel the hurt and the let down every single month when I hear bad news. I don’t want to fall asleep crying, and wake up with puffy eyes. I don’t want to stay awake at night because it’s all that I can think about. I just NEED to refocus and remember the joy that life has and continues to bring into my life. I NEED to acknowledge the accomplishments I’ve overcome so far. I NEED to remind myself that God WILL give us a beautiful baby when he believes the time is right.
So Mallory… thank you. Thank you for reminding me that there is indeed a wonderful life outside of the struggles we’ve been facing.
With all that being said, I have one more marvelous thing to share…
Yup, how amazing is that? Thanks to my (awesome) Mom for sending a months’ worth of Greek Yogurt! 🙂
Have an amazing day with happiness, love, and laughter ❤ Don’t forget to link-up to Marvelous In My Monday hosted by the beautiful Katie herself.